waiting for the world to change.

27th April.

" The invariable mark of wisdom is to see the miraculous in the common. "

Project 365

Project 365# '?'

脑一小面。

想放两盆小仙人掌在桌上， 但考虑到自己的心并不算细，行为不算温柔。。。还是先把这念头挂在一旁，可不想一不小心就把两小棵植物灭了。

a.

Do not tell me when should i start doing what i love,please.

nerddy way.

Considering the possibility that i will fail my maths by tomorrow. After all, i deserve it; Deep inside i understand how much i love words rather than numbers. More on perspective and creative thinking rather than logical and formula ways. Still i decide to die on my feet not on my knees. To put in more efforts than i willing to.

1st, April.

1.38a.m.

'Calling....[lance]'

i let the ringing dies and try again.

This time, someone picked up.

' Hey mate '

I cleared my throat and struggled to pull the words out behind my lips." hey man, so sorry that ive woken you up at this hour"

'so whats up?' He sounded sleepy still.

I tried to hold firm, kept my cheeks still and said...

" its...its just that umm... you know... *sigh with deep despair* i got a girl pregnant , and ... and i'll have to get married within 2-3 months before it looks ugly "

'WHAT the F*k ? , what did you do !!? '

My voice almost blow me out but i managed to keep my composure. " i know man, its just that * sobbing a little* IM only 19 man, god, 19 ! i really don't know what to do so i just called you "

' What did you DO!? '

" i was like real drunk that night and hell knows what did i do man, it was crazy... i barely know that girl man, and honestly she's pretty fat ... what should i do man, * sobbing real hard now*

' Man, are you sure its yours? you gotta do the 'A' shit man. '

" it has to be mine man, and i swore to myself i'd rather go to hell than taking a baby's life away "

' God, i can't believe this is happening man, you actually got a girl pregnant huh. god.so whats your plan now and.... '

Before he was done with what he was about to say, he hesitated half a second and yelled out

' YOU B*TCH ! i know whats happening now you B*tch! '

Then all the laughters blew off, i was laughing my ass off, and its not metaphor.

What happened later was seriously ugly, because he woke his girlfriend up and i suppose his ass got kicked~

im puttin' up Darren(left) and Lance, the reason is simple... Darren you ass you're the first and only one who caught me that day( anyway that hardly counted as april fool joke man because the joke was pulled when you were 3 am in Melbourne i was only 11.55pm (31st of March still)in Malaysia), and Lance you're one of the 6 people i pulled pranks on, and your case was the most hilarious.)

When too much is not enough.

不要让自己拥有比自己需要的更多.

One day at a time.

We can only learn to take, our anger and our hate

control our mental state, settle down and set it straight

Maybe we can learn to take

a second to pump the brake

For we said it

regret it later

and let it escalate

Cause by then its just too late

theres so much we can take

Theres only so much someone can swallow and tolerate

To the point he just breaks

Snaps and thats all it takes.